A Woman's Diary

My First Flight Journey

It has been almost 10 months of my marriage.n i was going  to USA.as mridul was already there.just after 5 months of our marriage mridul had to go US  as it was d part of his job. his project got extension so i also got d chance to go there.i was quite excited...very very excited actual..not only coz i was going to "America"..but i was going to be with mridul..as after marriage we hardly live 1 month together(and it has been 10 month)..so i was very very happy ..excited..thrilled..mixture of lots of feeling was there.this was my ever first journey by flight..n its 'international'..i were excited abt this also but scared too coz i were going all alone there.i felt like this journey was going to be d 'journey' of my life.as of now it doesn't seem extraordinary thing for me but that time it was really a 'Big' thing for me.anyways i was nervous about this 24 hr flight journey..all alone.but at d end of d journey i was going to be with mridul ..this was giving me confidence.my in laws came too see off me at d airport.everyone was concerned..worried about my 'going alone' thing.n me too
i said bye bye to everyone and Very confidently entered into d airport..after waiting for some time i were in the Que checking luggage n other formalities..i were a bit nervous as mridul told me  to carry every possible documents required there..if any missing i wont be able to board on plane.so i were again n again checking all d documents..a bundle of paper was in my hands.then my turn came..d person on checking counter took my baggage..checked d weight ..n it got cleared smoothly.took my documents i were really nervous..he checked it n returned it to me..."anything else" i asked.he smiled n said "yes mam your boarding passes".this was a bit embrassing for me.In my nervousness i forgot to take my boarding passes.after tat moment i realised tat i should took a hold on my nervousness.I called my family n mridul tat i got my boarding passes.now i had to wait for my flight ..still one hr was there.n i was waiting...tat wait was really killing me..i wanted to just jump into d plane to be with mridul as soon as possible.i was in thoughts n dreams of our togeatherness which was going to be soon again and tat too in USA..suddenly a gentleman came n sat on d chair next to me.'hi...r u in d same flight' he asked.'yes i m' i answered..'oh tats really good'...his 'good' word felt very suggesstive to me.:)
he kept talking to me."is this ur first flight journey" he asked....now here i dont want to be look stupid or nervous.so i pretended to be very confident n answered "No..i travelled a lot before but internationaly this is first one"."oh this is my first journey by flight n i m bit nervous coz its international..a long duration flight." he answered. i were satisfied inside 'thank god i m not d only one'. n smiled....'tats ok.dont be vervous.it will be a good journey..i told him.
this actualy gave me a confidence.finally announcment made for my flight..and i move towards d gate..entered into d plane.sat on my seat...it was a window seat..looking outside d window..d beautiful night view.d plane was going to take off..and this was d scariest moment for me as i m scared of heights.i started remembering god..chanting mantras..closed my eyes..didn't want to see outside...didn't want to feel d height ..how up i were .finally plane took off n i were in d sky.i was happy tat finally i m going to be with mridul..now nothing can stop me.d inside view of plane was not very attracting n amusing for me so i choose to look outside, though i were scared of height but still....n tat view definetly far better than inside one..d beautiful night view of delhi city frm this much height...suddenly my fear of height got disapperaed..n i started enjoying d view...d moon..stars..they were still at d same distance as they look frm earth ground...still out of reach.

anyways i started enjoying my journey..after 9 hr i reached frankfurt,Germany..frm there i had to change my flight to Dallas,USA.I boarded on tat flight.I met a southindian woman who hardly knows english except some words.."yes, no,help"she was going to visit her son in USA.somewhere i felt pitty on tat woman as she was facing a lot problems coz of language.She even cudn't speak hindi so me too was unable to talk to her.anyways people do every possible n even impossible things just to be with their loveones.In a way me too doing d same things..going all alone there.which was not possible for me earlier.anyways this flight journey was going to end .n my heartbeats was increasing ..me n mridul was going to be togeather after a long time.finally flight landed n i came out frm airport ...imagining mridul like a hindi film hero with flowers in his hand....a total filmy situation...then i saw mridul..though d flowers were not in his hand...but i cud see his face blossming like flower after seeing me..which was hundered time better than any flower..tat was one of d best moment of my life.That journey ended up showing me d best moment of my life.i will always remember this journey throughout my life.

Decision For Life

Jis rishte ko pala hai maine..use aaj apni jindgi se nikala hai maine
Laga yu  jaise jism se jaan ko nikala hai maine

Bahut pyar tha is dil me uske liye..per takeelf kuch is kadar badh gayi ki
Apne hi dil ko cheel dala hai maine..

Mushkil tha jeena uske bina ..saans b lena  mera uske bina
Per hua kuch aisa...dil toot gaya mera..
Dil k tukde b namumkin tha gin pana mera

Pir b un tukdo ko andekha kar
Sambhala maine tujhe aa kr
Per kahin andar mai gayi thi bikhar
Jindgi ki us sacchai ko jaan kar
Na kar payi pir tujhse pyar shayed us kadar

Dil ko pir ek seema me bandh dala maine

Ab uske bina hi  hai jeena.. tay kar dala hai maine...

flavour of life

“Flavor of life”, few months back me n one of my friend had discovered this term. So what does it mean? Though I can elaborate d meaning but still want to say in one line...flavor of life is something which keeps u alive...keeps u happy.I am not sure about others but for me it is. Actually there are kinds of happiness too. May be I differ with my friend on this but anyways. Talking about d flavor of life, I just say that life keeps giving us different kind of flavor all d time...but here I am talking about d flavor we like or you can say we like to have. As time passes by, our source of flavor get change...when we were kid, our flavor was just toys…playing with them…buying new ones, gave us happiness. We kept waiting for any occasion to buy new one. And as we grown up things got changed...sometimes going to our grandparent’s house was d flavor of life…Sometimes our friend....girl friend…Boy friend were d flavor of life. Actually tat was d time when we understood d happiness (at least that time we felt so)… going out with friends…spending time with friends…making new friends, were d things which used to make us happy and alive. Giving cards...gifts…flowers to our love one, waiting for his/her calls, sms, letters....these were d things…actually beautiful things, which taught us d meaning of happiness that time.
Than 'marriage'...I believe this cud be a big source of tat wanted ‘flavor' in any one’s life...which can keep u always happy n alive…makes your life worth living.
But I have seen, in many cases it last within a short period of time...after some years of marriage when struggle starts for better future or new responsibilities start adding into life, we forget to mix d flavor in our life.  We do start feeling that our life is dull, boring. And again we start our search for the flavor...for some people it cud be a baby...for some it cud be making a new friend...and for somebody it cud be something else...may be some other interest, in short, we can say, flavor of life keep changing throughout d life and we need it at every stage of life…at least now I can say this. It’s really necessary to keep u alive not only physically…but mentally and emotionally. Something, which u do for yourself…or incase u r doing it for others also and u feel happy than it’s your flavor of life. Actually anything which satisfies your sole is for you only.
For my friend this is something different…with which I don't agree…but still I do agree with d term n logic behind this. The only thing about flavor of life is, doing anything which keeps u alive.
Ultimately happiness matter for all of us…everyone has right to get his/her flavor of life. As a matter of fact this term was just a fun for me n my friend when we used it very first time but after that I realized or you can say analyzed this term...n perhaps, I am also searching for my flavor of life...or may be trying to maintain that flavor which I already have....